Like a lion in the cage

So, here I am, following the drop-out plan.

Everything that I have no use for, has been posted in various online markets for sale. Pretty good progress so far, but a lot still to go. I am impatient.

Every day that goes by unrelated to the plan, is a wasted day. Everything seems to have its own pace, whatever I do.

The issue with the mortgage, after my wooden house was destroyed in the devastating wildfire on July 23rd 2018, is still pending. One upcoming court hearing with the same bank, related to a private loan, is due in May. The mortgage court hearing is due in June. I need to play along with the system's rules, until I am finally free.

I was thrilled to receive information about the Camino de Santiago. it came up unexpectedly, and blew my mind. I need to hike it. It's a decision made, only the exact time remains to be decided upon. I want to walk the entire distance from my home in Switzerland to Fisterra, Spain... all 2200 kilometers of it. Am I overoptimistic? I will soon find out. I will do it this summer, will probably need 2 months or more. I am buying a rucksack; otherwise, most of the required equipment I already have.

My patience has long expired. I am walking in my home in circles, like a lion in the cage. Somehow, starting off before setting things right seems not feasible. Or is it just me... and my fears, my stress for the unknown. So much "code" to delete, convictions from the past that restrict the future. I need to get rid of them ASAP.

Somehow, Chopin seemed the appropriate background music, for writing this piece. It relaxes me. It soothes my restlessness. Everything will happen at the right time, the universe knows better than us. We just need to take the proper junction and ride the proper parallel universe, in the multitude of options. And then, everything comes in place, by itself. I trust. I know.

I feel I do not belong to the current dimensions, I need to move out of them, I suffocate. Ah, patience i don't have. Why... So many years have passed in oblivion, why rush now! But, after taking the red pill, the "reality" is so unbearable. I urgently need another reality. My reality.

It's reassuring to learn that I am not the only one who thinks like this, and I am not crazy. People are actually doing it right now, as we speak. Jeremy Noronha is one of them.